What happens in the snow...

Now this.. this really had my heart going.

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Close friends birthday, she decides she will take me and her bf to the snow. the night goes wonderfully. we start drinking.. more giggles, more smiles. we move to a cabin with a huge log fire and a lounge at the furthest end. they both move to the sofa, im sent to get more drinks. i come back to them full on making out. for some reason my heart lurches.. but i recover quickly, "ignoring" them and moving to a table to put the drinks down.

I turn and shes moved, shes now sitting on his legs that are out in front of him, her back to me. she starts to take off her jackets, layers. the boy whispers something to her. she doesn't even turn her head.

"just get out."

"but.. where am i.."

"go"

All the while she continues to undress, him starting to help her, he looks around her waste and a sadistic smile spreads across his face. i stand there, unsure what to do.

"go away!" she yells

I turn, grab only the bag ive brought and walk out the cabin door. its cold. of course. it hits like a tonne of bricks and i almost turn back, but she said go away. now that is the one thing i cant stand, could never stand, not from her. i walk, for hours, down the mountain. i fall constantly. over and over. not one car passes me and not a sound reaches me. all i can hear is the crunch of this bloody snow and my breaths as they get colder and colder.

I do get to the bottom. i make it plainly by memory from there, until i get bars on my phone. i call my father, tell him where i am and sit down beside the road. next thing i know im in a hospital bed, they tell me they found me half covered in snow and unconscious. i had caught hypothermia due to me having been drinking and the extreme cold. it was bad, so i was kept in the hospital for 3 or so weeks.

When i got out i was met with instant confusion. my friend had been trying to get hold of me. she had "needed" me. this boy had taken her virginity and had been gone the next morning. when she had searched him out he had claimed not to know her. made her feel like a fool she said. so soon after getting out, i was taken to town, for treats i think.

She found me in town, confronted me, abused me for not being there for her, for skipping out before her bday night was over. the entire time i kept quiet until she tried to blame me leaving on myself. standing at my full height i told her exactly why i hadnt been there when she awoke, that i hadn't been here for her for the 3 weeks due to the fact she sent me out to freeze to death. that i was glad he'd done this to her, that she had been a fool. that i was in her life way before this boy and would be there long after he left and yet she abused that, she ruined what good thoughts and hopes i had of her.

As i told her these things, her expression changed. anger to pain, tears, she crumbled, was on her knees in minutes, pleading, begging me to take her back, to love her again. and all the while i looked down on her. she was in such a pitiful state..





And my eyes opened.